Adoption experience

My experience with Adoption is unique as my Adoption kinship adoption.

My mom present and nurturing. There was not a mean streak in her.Mom however got stressed out. My dad would suggest mom cut back. My dad stressed out but kept going.

This was a strength my dad had being even keeled.

the wall went up with my parents when I wanted answers. I didn't get answers.

My questions were not validated.

They wondered how to bond with me.

I would tense up if they tried to get close to me. I kept them at arm's length.

My dad especially. Dad was stern and reserved. I was sensitive and reacted quickly and I was tender hearted.

My solution answer my questions. I never never voiced my thoughts.

When I found out the truth I could bond with mom. It never was perfect as Mom insistence for me to keep my story a secret.

My aunt mother there was a coldness and stiffness that continues to distance us and keep us apart.

It's like a tug of war between me and my parents. I feel pulled in different directions!

Today well it doesn't matter. My folks passed away.

I stand tall in my identity. I am Gods daughter. I have my own family and I relax. I can be me!