Angry in being Adoption to knowing that I am a Princess Warrior

I'm a Adoptee. I Struggled with anger and resentment had me trapped.

I wasn't allowed to express my anger in a appropriate way. I repressed my anger.

The thoughts about my adoption were buried inside of me.

Hurt and Depression

I wanted answers and I couldn't get answers. I became disillusioned with people especially with family.

When I was able to find answers I continued to be angry.

I pretended to be someone I was not.

I was wanting to come out to tell people that I am Adopted

Unless you are an adoptee you will never fully understand the pain of trauma that a Adoptee s experiences subconscious brain in separation from a birth parent.

The bond is severed and it becomes a wound.

Its permanent .

I was trapped in my pain and anger as no one could understand how I feel anger when I had no reason to be angry.

It didn't help me at all.

I continued to be angry.

I began throwing dishes, I yelled at my husband. I Struggled with depression.

I felt ashamed of my behavior towards my husband.

Our marriage was in shambles.

I had a break down.

Healing is a process!

Anger doesn't go away over night.

I needed a listening ear.

People wanted my deep seated anger to go away. They were upset with me

I had many layers that needed to go away.

I blew up in front of people and I didn't want anyone to see this side of me.

I went forward and my anger disappeared and reappeared.

A friend started to listen to me.

There was still so much anger and resentment and trauma.

My anger wasn't getting better. I was functional.

No one was listening to me I asked for help.

I developed a migraine headache that lasted a week. I stuttered. I blew up with a raging headache.

I was stuttering

Breakthrough

I Stopped pretending about being someone I wasn't.

I stepped out of my pain ! Being someone I wasn't .

God sees me as his daughter.

I began to feel my pain.

I experience shared about my Adoption Kinship Adoption experience.

This breakthrough happened a long time ago.

I went on to write 2 books.

Healing is a

Process

I am marked with a wound.

I refuse to allow my experience to define me.

God defines me.

I have set backs but I know that God has set me free from anger.

My marriage was restored.

I stopped throwing things.

I have been set free! from my angry hurting heart.