Flashback of abandoned to overcomer

I headed out to the bike trail this afternoon. (Sunday )

I had had my visit with my friend on the phone and I was itching to get on the bike trail.

It's April and when I'm on the trail biking I take every opportunity I have to get on the trail. In fact I get a little bit itchy to be on the trail.

I had looked at the weather forecast and it said it's going to rain later on today so I decided to fit in a bike ride.

I had mentioned to Maurice to stay in the parking lot as we didn't have a lot of gas and just to follow me on the trail rather than use up the gas in the car so we could get home.

Maurice was having a daydreamy day and he was not concentrating. And he went to Floradale to meet me.

I just wanted to go for a short run as I'd had to run on the bike yesterday.

I went to Archie's resting place and sat down and turned around to go back to Elmira. And as I was on the trail coming back the clouds were getting dark and darker.

Spits of rain came and I asked the Lord to turn the tap off so that I wouldn't get too wet.

The Bell on my bike was not working. So that I let people know that I was coming I just said I'm coming, I have a big mouth because my bells not working. I got a lot of laughs.

I am thankful for that the people had agood sense of humor.

I was almost to Floradale and then Maurice wasn't there I heard that's where Maurice was.

That just took the cake when I heard about that one. My stamina was gone , my sense of humor was gone. I was upset. I cried out to God.

And God said you can either take a fit or you can have faith in me that I will help you. I said okay God I'll Trust you instead of taking a fit.

There was thunder clap coming and some lightning and lots of rain. I prayed for Maurice to come and find me.

I didn't have my phone and I couldn't call him and yes I couldn't remember his phone number either.

A family said that they would go and look for Maurice in Elmira in the car. I stayed put I also prayed that Maurice would stay put.

I then stopped my panic when I heard from God that he was with me. He would not forsake me. I didn't need to be afraid because he was right beside me. And he would not abandon me. That God would help me. And as I heard those words I said Thank you Lord that I will find Maurice. Thank you Lord that you hear me when I call out to you. Thank you Lord you're worthy of my praise. Jesus you're all powerful.

And then a man in black clothes and a black hat came on his bike and could see so it was just a boat in the spare. And he came up to me and spoke words of encouragement. He told me that my husband was looking for me. I told him I couldn't go back to find them. I was spent. And this dear man went back to find my husband and tell him where he was. A short time later the same man came back and said that my husband would be back in about 5 minutes. I was so relieved because I was getting wet.

A peace came over me.

I was pleased that the rain slowed down and the thunder stopped. The lightning stopped. The song I had just sang that he would hold me close through the storm and the shelter of his love.

As an adoptee I struggle with abandonment issues. This afternoon the Lord showed up. The Lord was there to tell me not to be afraid that my abandonment issues were in the past and today when I was feeling abandoned that he would continue to be with me. And that's exactly what happened today to me.

While I was out on the trail the Lord said to me don't get too angry at your husband. Build them up. He's had a rough day. He needs to know that she'll love him. He's had a flashback and you're love and understanding will help heal him today.

Well we've learned a few lessons.

Always take your phone.

Always take an extra set of clothes with you.

Always take a little bit of money with you.

And make sure your husband knows where he's supposed to be at. Make sure he understands you and that his head isn't in the clouds.

Always take Band-Aids with you.

I always take your health card with you..

Remember to have a good sense of humor. And it's okay to fume a little bit as long as you don't stay there and you get through it before you get to your husband.

Until next time Margaret

Faith not a fit!