HONESTRY KINDNESS Understanding Matters

In my last blog I was blowing blogging off steam.

I do find it difficult to know where I am to fit into my family as a adoptee.

I do want to be honest

I confess that I find it difficult to trust people.

People have treated me poorly.

I have to communicate what I need.

I use to blow up and say exactly what I am thinking.

I have learned I have to not to react and say the first thing that comes to mind.

I wait to feel better.

I have held onto things for too long. I want to blow up.

It is my own fault that I haven't spoken up.

I need to Check and to clarify things with people before I react and

not put things off

I have learned I have to say How things make me feel. Rather than store things up.

I tend to blow up. A headache doesn't help.

I can't push things down.

I have to understand where people are coming from.

There's an explanation for things if I bother to ask.

I am learning that being kind means understanding Where a person is coming from.

I confess that I have been judging. I have been out of line. I need to Ask before I react.

Sometimes honesty doesn't come naturally when it comes to stating what I need.

I guess it is because I have been Gaslighted.

It doesn't matter! Don't over react.

My feelings matter even if it doesn't make sense to others.

Even if we disagree on how a incident happened.

I know how it made me feel.

Thanks for listening! Reading

This has been my week.