Reunion

I have not written about reunion and how family reacted to me.

First off I am disappointed with how family reacted to me.

I think my family needed to anticipate that I would want answers.

I didn't expect that my reunion would run in the family as kinship adoption.

I had fantasized a family of total strangers.

Not family I was familiar with.

Body language

I started to understand the body language of clearing the throat.

Eye contact

There was a far off look !

Changing the subject

Non verbal communication.

Agree to do something and sending the message with the silent treatment.

Walking by and non verbal. Funeral home with out a greeting.

Clamming up when I walked into the room.

Conversation was awkward. My birth fathers showed that I was off limits when it came to talking about me. I could tell my father and my mother would have it out after I visited.

It explained the body language.

Family trying to justify their actions.

No reunion for me was distressing and disappointing.

For a long time I took my family's reaction personally.

It made me wish that I hadn't ask.

I have come to terms with my experience.

I am not responsible for my birth parents behavior.

Even if my adoption story had not been family, it would not be the idea family.

I am a adult. I am glad that I am able to put the awkward behavior behind me.

I hope that the younger generation will handle the situation different Ly.

Probably not on my watch!

So I will be me. I have to be me and I'm not going to be anybody else except me. I will continue to speak my truth and make family aware what happened to me damage me but has made me a better person.